Sunday, November 20, 2011

winter in my heart

wats Up FELLAS!! well...i m tired of this chilly n cold winter...can't go out cuz of cold breeze..days are too long and nights are too short..just feels like sleep n sleep n sleep ....wanna go and chill somewhere in sun...but poor chengdu....we chengdu pplz hardly get glance of sun...sad sad* no vitamin D in our body :( ..sO taking the best care of myself from cold...
high tym to prepare for my semister exam ..but toO lazy to go library....stocking piles and piles of notes...but never turning the pages...life is too boring when its comes to study...craving for delicious foods... everytime in mind...awww no more shopping and hanging out in chunxuelu...MEIYOUQIAN :(( just getting satisfied with limited money for food ..dying for winter breaks...omg 45 days ..desperately waiting...more over damn excited for jan 16...turning 22 next birthday...don't want to get old ...want to stay forever 21...jusssssss :x
happily had 1 month of great relationship...waiting for new twist n turns ...recently had a funny accident....but hurt myself too badly..later on came to realize if it was shooted and uploaded in youtube i bet i would get not less than 1 million viewers lol...but the pain is still there in my head.. 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

current news of the week!


aww..my babyboo
the only way u can live forever is to love somebody -then u really leave a gift behind...
Its onlywhen we truely know and undestand tat we hav a limited tym on earth and that we hav no way of knowing when our tym is up-that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had....
i love u baby...
i think today is the happiest day of  my life...muahhhzz.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

My half way being a medial docter

Tym flies ....ya..so here is my new sem ..omg i dnt belive i am 7th sem already..I now feel more like a docter except for prescribing medicine ...=P BUT i am learning to diagnosis the patient for detecting their disease...i feel myself so lucky to get finest education from one of he reputed and renowed college of CHINA...5000+ bed is not a joke...and here everyday patients comes up with new cases for treating disease...
nevertheless...i am not a full intern now...but half way to being a intern...so here this sem my majors are Preventive Medicine,Diagnosis,radiology,acupunture,gediatris and nuclear medicine...
       Digitally i am preparing myself to find the patients problem..here we don't see a patient coming for simple prescription..they come with complicated serious brain damage or parts of body...so we do need highly techique machines to detect the microorgans...and diagnosis them regaring disease.
ps:I feel so grateful to learn and make all of the things i learn applicable in future to my patients..XOXO ..c ya..zaijian..

Sunday, September 11, 2011

some quotes tat really inspire me

I was with someone from the time I was 18 and I've never been my own independent adult. Right now there's no space in my head for who's going to be next or how I need to fill my time. I'm trying to expand myself and grow and be comfortable with who I am before I get into another relationship where I'll just repeat a cycle. Otherwise I will have ten failed relationships. I will be Elizabeth Taylor by the time I am 60 and I don't want that.


If your idea of a role model is somebody who's gonna preach to your kids that sex before marriage is wrong and cursing is wrong and women should be this and be that, then I'm not a role model. But if you want your girls to feel strong and intelligent and be outspoken and fight for what they think is right, then I want to be that type of role model, yeah.


I like someone who has a super gentle spirit and energy, who's funny and has a good sense of humour - I'm really gentle, and so I like a boy who will treat me that way. I don't like boys who are mean to their mummies. That's a real turn off for me. And I don't like boys who aren't chivalrous. To me, not being respectful is a big deal.

I think that God or the universe, or whatever you believe in, gave men brute physical strength and gave women their sexuality. It's so easy to control men with it, so I don't know why I wouldn't embrace it and allow myself to be empowered by it.
I personally always find something really scary about watching little girls learning to manipulate their dads by baby talking. Then they grow up and use the same technique on their boyfriends or husbands. That scares me because it's just so sick on so many levels.

I've been afraid of the dark all my life. I leave the lights on all the time and if the light is off, I have to run across the room to get to the switch. I can't walk through a dark room. I'm afraid of what I can't see.


I feel like that's my purpose in life, to do charity work and help people around the world on a global level. Being part of this business, you have so much influence and you can really make a difference. I'm drawn towards the idea of somehow helping children.


Of course, I have a lot of flaws. But I do not tell them - ever.


"My mom always taught me to be sweet and polite and cross my legs because it's what the guys like. Actually, they like a raunchy girl once in a while." - being a feminine woman


I wake up every morning and I'm thankful for what I have. I've been blessed with a lot of wonderful things and I try to reflect on that every chance I can


Success is a great deodorant. It takes away all your past smells


The ups and downs, the problems and stress, along with all the happiness, have given me optimism and hope because I am living proof of survival.


If you can live for other people away from yourself you will be happy and if you live for yourself then you will not be happy and you won't be able to sleep or do anything else.















Saturday, September 3, 2011

BILL GATES' 11 RULES THAT STUDENTS DO NOT LEARN IN SCHOOL


  • RULE 1 - Life is not fair; get used to it.

  • RULE 2 - The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

  • RULE 3 - You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with a car phone, until you earn both.

  • RULE 4 - If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.

  • RULE 5 - Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping, they called it opportunity.R

  • ULE 6 - If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, So don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

  • RULE 7 - Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parents' generation, try "delousing" the clothes in your own room.

  • RULE 8 - Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades; they will ask as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

  • RULE 9 - Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.

  • RULE 10 -Television is NOT real life! In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

  • RULE 11 - Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.


  • Friday, September 2, 2011


    Although in many cases inspection of the abdomen
    may have less to offer than palpation and percussion, a
    good visual scan is still essential to obtain the most from
    the subsequent examination. For example, the question of
    whether an abdomen is protuberant because of obesity
    and/or ascites may be difficult to resolve, without first scanning
    the patient both in the standing and lying positions.
    In simple obesity, fat is laid down over many years and it
    tends to gravitate in the suprainguinal and suprapubic
    folds (8.1). This chronic fixed dependence can be better
    appreciated by looking at the side view of the patient (8.2)
    which also reveals fat-laden skin folds at the back.
    In contrast, the patient with ascites shows mobile
    dependence of the ascitic fluid, which, on standing, protrudes
    in the middle and overhangs the pubis (8.3). The
    suprainguinal areas on either side show a furrow instead
    of a fold and the umbilicus looks stretched, sometimes
    everted, under the pressure of the fluid (8.4). These points
    are reinforced by looking at the side view of this patient
    with ascites (8.5) compared with Figure 8.2. The ascitic fluid has gravitated to the suprapubic region, leaving a
    furrow in the left suprainguinal region where a redundant
    fold of fat is seen in the obese patient (8.2). In addition,
    gynaecomastia and dilated veins can be seen in Figure 8.5,
    which are helpful clues about this patient's underlying
    portal cirrhosis. The lateral furrow is also seen when the
    abdominal swelling is caused by a retroperitoneal cyst or
    hydronephrosis (8.6, 8.7).
    Only after attention to these details can a clinician
    proceed to further examination with ample confidence.
    Sadly, many postgraduate students let themselves down
    in higher examinations by proceeding with palpation and
    percussion of the abdomen without first looking at it. This
    is the chief reason why they miss polycystic kidneys in an
    obese subject.
    The abdomen and the chest provide a large area for
    looking for the various stigmata of liver disease such as
    jaundice, gynaecomastia, telangiectasia and scratch marks
    (8.8). In bright natural light, jaundice can be detected
    easily by looking at the skin, as in this patient with a
    cholangiocarcinoma (8.8).
    Looking at a standing patient with suspected intraabdominal
    pathology should not be omitted in those with
    no ascites, since a fullness caused by an enlarged liver (8.9)
    or spleen, or both (8.10), may be made obvious by this procedure.
    A lateral view will also reveal the scar of a previous
    operation and a surface impression of a transplanted
    kidney (8.11).
    Dilatation of the abdominal wall veins (8.12) occurs in
    portal hypertension and in inferior vena caval obstruction.
    The flow of blood within the veins can be determined by
    blanching the dilated vein (8.13) and then by releasing the
    pressure at each end to see the refilling in the direction
    of the flow (8.14). In intrahepatic portal hypertension paraumbilical veins are enlarged and the flow is away from
    the umbilicus towards the caval system (8.5, 8.15, 8.16).
    In inferior vena caval (IVC) obstruction, the collateral
    venous channels carry blood upwards to reach the superior
    vena caval system (8.17). The interpretation regarding
    the flow should be made with caution in tense ascites, which
    may cause functional obstruction of the inferior vena cava
    (8.18). Rarely, a number of prominent collateral veins may be seen radiating from the umbilicus (caput medusae)
    (8.19). Attention should be directed to the other clinical
    features associated with chronic liver disease (8.20).
    The umbilicus should be inspected for the presence
    of umbilical and periumbilical herniae (8.21, 8.22), which
    usually occur in obese subjects particularly after abdominal
    surgery. Nickel dermatitis (8.22) may be seen around
    the umbilicus in sensitive subjects wearing nickel buckles
    next to the skin.
    The umbilicus is also a site of predilection for the dark
    red papules of angiokeratoma corporis diffusum (Fabry's
    disease; 8.23), which is an X-linked recessive disease. This
    is an inborn error of metabolism in which there is a deficiency
    of alpha-galactosidase A, leading to an accumulation
    of glycosphingolipid ceramide in endothelial cells,
    and fibrocytes in the dermis, heart, kidneys and autonomic
    nervous system. Progressive renal failure occurs in
    adult life. Most patients have attacks of excruciating,
    unexplained pain in their hands.
    A valuable but rare sign of acute haemorrhagic pancreatitis
    is a bruise or pigmentation near the umbilicus termed
    Cullen's sign (8.24). This occurs when retroperitoneal
    blood dissects its way anteriorly towards the umbilicus,
    where the colour of the overlying skin depends on the age of the resulting bruise. The blood may also dissect into the
    flanks where a similar discolouration may be seen called
    the Grey Turner's sign (8.25).
    As for the axillae, the groins should be inspected for
    increased or decreased pigmentation, glandular swellings,
    intertriginous infections, and for herniae. Small glands may
    be palpable in normal subjects but visible large glandular
    masses (8.26) are mostly pathological (e.g. suggestive of
    infection, lymphoma or secondaries). Tuberculous adenitis
    may involve the inguinal glands and form a cold abscess
    (8.27). Lymphogranuloma venereum (8.28) is a sexually
    transmitted disease caused by Chlamydia trachomatis.
    Among heterosexuals, primary infection produces a
    rarely observed genital ulcer 2-3 weeks after exposure,
    followed later (2-4 weeks) by painful inguinal lymphadenopathy,
    often associated with signs of systemic
    infection. It heals spontaneously. It must be distinguished
    from a tumour, chancroid, syphilis and other granulomatous
    diseases.
    An inguinal hernia (8.29) is not difficult to recognize
    in a standing patient but it may regress in a recumbent
    position.
    8.24It would seem logical to extend the examination of the
    groins to that of the genitalia as part of the overall clinical
    assessment. However, most clinicians limit this practice to
    those occasions when they expect to find an abnormality.
    Thus, testicular bulk would be assessed in chronic liver
    disease and myotonia dystrophica, whereas underdeveloped
    and infantile genitalia would be looked for in
    Klinefelter's syndrome (8.30) and in the growth hormone
    deficiency syndrome (8.31).
    A dermatologist may look routinely for genital lesions
    when he or she has already diagnosed scabies (8.32) or
    lichen planus (8.33).

    Thursday, August 4, 2011

    Set in IIT, in the early '90s, Five Point Someone portrays the lives of the protagonist Hari and his two friends Ryan and Alok. It explores the darker side of IIT, one in which students- having worked for years to make it into the institute-struggle to maintain their grades, keep their friends and have some kind of life outside studies.

    Funny, dark and non-stop, Five Point Someone is the story of three friends whose measly five-point something GPAs come in the way of everything-their friendship, their love life, their future. Will they make it?

    I really liked the style of writing this book..I mean writers way of expressing conversations between two characters..which definately makes me feel like the characters  and feelings are for real.
    The author Mr.Chetan bhagat also takes us to the day to day college life of students in east..students in middle class family..how their life is affected by their family and friends.Their simple way of living with low expense and surviving in strict rules in dorm .Moreover,how the family influences them  to choose their aim and fulfil their parents dream.Every studious students in east willing and dreaming to work in US..and working their ass off in college life for better future ahead.

    How to Fall Asleep and Sleep Through the Night


    (Cambridge) - Did you know that people who get enough sleep (about 7-9 hours a night) are more likely to have higher productivity, feel more energetic throughout the day, and experience less stress? Sleep is crucial for concentration, memory formation, and repairing and rejuvenating the cells of the body. Both mentally and physically, a good night's sleep is essential for your health and your energy.
    The Problem - Waking Up at Night
    Unfortunately, experts estimate that more than 70 million Americans have persistent trouble falling or staying asleep. If you are one of the millions of people who suffer, you know how frustrating it can be to lie awake in bed at night, tossing and turning.
    Finding an effective remedy is difficult. Some sleep aids require a visit to your doctor, dealing with unpleasant side effects, and facing the possibility of becoming dependent on the drugs. Even over-the-counter sleep aids can be habit-forming. But don't worry, you don't have to suffer through another sluggish morning.
    The Solution - Staying Asleep, and Waking Up Refreshed
    In contrast, many sleep aid supplements are safe, natural, and quickly gaining popularity. They typically contain melatonin, a naturally-occurring compound that regulates sleeping cycles and also has value as a possible antioxidant. You should look for a sleep aid that contains more than melatonin alone. Essential herbal ingredients further promote calming effects leading to quality sleep. The better you sleep, the more energetic and awake you will feel in the morning and throughout the day. There are a variety of sleep supplements available to help promote relaxing and refreshing sleep, but not all brands are equal in quality.
    The Benefits of Natural Sleep Supplements
    • Fall Asleep Faster
    • Stay Asleep Longer
    • Wake up Feeling Refreshed and Rejuvenated
    • Safe and Effective All Natural Ingredients
    • Non-Habit Forming

    Tuesday, July 26, 2011

    life QUotes!~

    "All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naive. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to be born with: that I am nobody but myself."
    — Ralph Ellison (Invisible Man)





    It's better to look at the sky than live there ^ ^

    Monday, July 25, 2011

    Why Would Anyone Choose to Become a Doctor? By DANIELLE OFRI, M.D


    Why Would Anyone Choose to Become a Doctor?

    You hear it all the time from doctors — they would never choose medicine if they had it to do all over again. It’s practically a mantra, with the subtle implication that the current generation of doctors consists of mere technicians.
    When I first started in practice, I found such comments both perplexing and annoying. I loved medicine and was excited to come to work every day. I considered those naysayers jaded has-beens, fusty old-timers pining away for the nonexistent “days of the giants.”
    However, as the years have passed, the warts of medicine have grown more conspicuous to me. During some of the more stressful days — crushed by impossible time constraints and ever more onerous bureaucratic demands — I can’t deny that the thought of giving up clinical practice has crossed my mind. Life would be so much easier….
    Yet, each year, a new wave of enthusiastic medical students floods our clinics and our wards. Part of me always wonders: Why do these students still choose to become doctors?
    It certainly can’t be the money — Wall Street is the faster and more reliable route to wealth, as evidenced by the skyrocketing of applications to M.B.A. programs.
    Applications to medical schools, surprisingly, have held steady over all, despite an exodus of top students to finance and banking. According to the American Association of Medical Colleges, about 40,000 students apply to medical school each year, with some 17,000 matriculating. (For comparison, there are about 45,000 students starting law school each year, and 100,000 starting business school.)
    Incoming medical students, while steady in their numbers, have had a major shift in their demography. In 1970, medical students were nearly entirely white men. Now half are women, and a third are Asian, black or Hispanic.
    I recently worked with a third-year student who’d just interviewed a patient with chest pain. The chest pain turned out to be nothing serious, just some acid reflux — a fairly ho-hum case in a medical clinic. But the student’s eyes were ablaze with fervor. “This was such an exciting case,” she said. “I had the chance to figure out whether or not the chest pain was life-threatening. And the patient was so happy when I reassured him that it wasn’t.”
    The awe of discovering the human body. The honor of being trusted to give advice. The gratitude for helping someone through a difficult illness. These things never grow old.
    But the frustrations of daily clinical life continue to mount. Administrative requirements increase exponentially, while the time allotted for the patient visit remains 15 to 20 minutes. The additional paperwork, electronic documentation, phone calls, insurance forms and quality assurance measures are all expected to be subsumed into the same workday.
    I once tried to calculate how many thoughts a primary care doctor has to juggle on a given day. (My tabulations came to 550; you can read about it inan article I wrote for The Lancet.) We keep pushing so many more balls into the air that there’s no doubt a few will fall. It’s this feeling of not being able to do as good a job as I’d like that makes me consider walking away from clinical medicine. I can’t countenance mediocrity, and I cringe whenever I feel that I can’t get it all done.
    But then I cringe when I think about what it would mean for patients if doctors walked away from medicine because of the frustrations.
    On top of that, I have to wonder about the alternatives if I gave up clinical medicine — pushing papers, sitting in endless PowerPoint meetings, crunching numbers — and realize that I am lucky and immensely privileged to be able to work directly with patients.
    When I close the door to the exam room and it’s just the patient and me, with all the bureaucracy safely barricaded outside, the power of human connection becomes palpable. I can’t always make my patients feel better, but the opportunity to try cannot be underestimated.
    If I’m having a really rotten day in clinic, all I need is one of these new medical students to pop in, even if they make a long day even longer. The fact that medicine is still compelling enough for 17,000 people each year to commit a decade or more of their life to training is inspirational.
    And when my students and I have our inevitable “career talk,” I tell them that there is nothing else I’d rather do in my life than medicine. If I had it to do all over again, I’d end up right here in this office — telling them that there’s nothing else I’d rather be doing.

    Sunday, July 24, 2011

    Happy MOnTh OF sharwan =D

    We are now in the highly auspicious month of Shravan in the Hindu calendar (that’s July/August). Shravan is a special month for Shiva, and is also a time for unmarried girls to mark certain observations to get celestial help in bagging themselves a decent husband. One of these is fasting on Mondays, the other is wearing green glass bangles for the whole month (or sometimes green and orange). For optimal effect, the bangles have to be worn through the whole month, and can only be removed on August 17th.
    The month of Shravan is in its peak now. Regarded auspicious by the Hindu women, the month brings colour and cheers among the Nepali Hindu women. During this month, especially on Mondays of Shravan, women clad themselves in green and red coloured dresses and other accessories and do visit temples of Lord Shiva.
    This is the month, girls and women all are excited about painting their hands red with mehandi or Henna. Likewise, the women also opt to load their hands with green and red colour glass bangles. All these are done during this month, regarded auspicious for the married women.
    It is believed that fasting on Mondays is observed by unmarried women to get an ideal husband like god Shiva. And married women do it for long life of their husband.
    With the start of Shravan, religious activities as well as women’s buying of things such as green clothes, beads, bangles and Mehandi goes on high.

    summer VACAtion

    I love summer vacation...since i didnt go home this time..so me and my frens we planned to spent it in a enjoyable way..because it's our vacation...since we were  planning to go home next.and the other next year we can't enjoy..as we will be having intern in hospital..

    SUMMER FUN(icecream+swimming+shorts lol)


    Make up brush fulfil all my fantasies


    I have sort of an odd obsession with make-up brushes. I've never actually bought a makeup brush by itself, yet somehow I've come into possession of a number of excellent brushes that I covet dearly.
    Whenever I go into Sephora I always have to make my way over to the rows of make-up brushes and play with them. Weird, I know. They're just so pretty and fluffy.
    Anyways, I recently got hold of three  Make-up Brushes, and they are to dye for. They came all wrapped up in nice plastic sheaths, and I even got a useful make-up bag along with them!



    I've never used a triangle brush before, and the shape made it really easy to get all the right spots. Super soft and pretty too!
    The eye brush,  was definitely my favorite. Described as "a medium-dome brush, great for blurring and blending of eye shadows. Perfect for creating a smoky effect and focusing on the crease of the eye."
    I love doing the smoky eye look, and this brush made it so simple and quick! I was done with my eyeshadow (which was perfectly blended) so fast! It also holds a lot of shadow, so it goes on very pigmented. Loved it!
    I don't really use lip brushes all too much because my lips are sensitive to most lip glosses, and I get these ugly cold sores. I'm thinking this might be the solution to my problem however, because I can clean it every time I use it, so the bacteria that would usually stay on the end of my lip gloss or lipstick would be obsolete. Well see if it works!
    The brush is number , and the website says it's "a flat, tipped brush, for precise lining of the lip contour and for perfect application of lip cream and gloss." I rubbed it around the tip of my lipstick, and it made for very easy and quick application because I could really see what I was doing. My lips are a little bigger, so I could really get the exact shape with this brush.
    Yay! The thing that really struck me about these brushes was how much faster I was able to do my make-up with them! Great quality, and they feel so soft and fluffy on my skin!

    Thursday, July 14, 2011

    An old man turned ninety-eight
    He won the lottery and died the next day
    It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
    It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
    And isn't it ironic... don't you think

    It's like rain on your wedding day
    It's a free ride when you've already paid
    It's the good advice that you just didn't take
    Who would've thought... it figures

    Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
    He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
    He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
    And as the plane crashed down he thought
    "Well isn't this nice..."
    And isn't it ironic... don't you think

    Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
    When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
    And life has a funny way of helping you out when
    You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
    In your face

    A traffic jam when you're already late
    A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
    It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
    It's meeting the man of my dreams
    And then meeting his beautiful wife
    And isn't it ironic...don't you think
    A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think..

    Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
    Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
    Helping you out 

    Tuesday, July 5, 2011

    pheww..finally my busy schedules and exams preparations r over..time to enjoy ..Its summer baby...fuck i went through so many craps...before i updated all this..holy shit thoses exam preparations were like...omgggggggg..working and working like donkey.....better donkey cud be less stressed...wat else he has to do except carring loads..by for me had to carry loads and get freaking worried abt it...duh..i was saying loads aka memoize...lol
    I had 1 week for my t.c.m preparation...and whole week i hav to lay down..cuz i was having i was having wisdom tooth..yeahhhhhhhhh i got wisdom..god damn it hurts like hell..and i went throgh so many medications...amoxilin and painkillers.after five days of antibiotics intake and painkiller ..still my right cheek was swollen...and even lymph nodes around mandibular areas....really had a hard tym...and..finally i got rid of them after 1 week..i was like omggg..fuck i dnt wish this even for my worstest enemy in the planet..so MY WISDOM TEETH WAS INDEED A BITCH..i wanted to visit a dentist but cuz of my exam tension...i cudn't...damn it paralyzed me for a week..it was such a torture...i cudnt sleep properly...in right position how i used to and the feeling i get when i get up early in morning..fuck..i cant open my mouth ...hurts like hell..and i cudnt eat spicy food..had to survive on mufins and juice....pS i am all fit and fight now..i can break anyone's wisdom teeth...

    Tuesday, May 17, 2011


    OH BABY ARE YOU FEELIN GUILTY FOR WHAT YOU DID? IF YOU THINK YOUR HURTIN YOU AIN'T SEEN NOTHIN YET. WAS HE REALLY WORTH IT? WAS HE EVERYTHING THAT YOU WERE LOOKIN FOR TO FEEL LIKE A MAN? I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT YOU CAN'T COME BACK CUZ ALL WE HAD IS BROKEN LIKE SHATTERED GLASS. YOU'RE GOING TO SEE ME IN YOUR DREAMS TONIGHT, MY FACE IS GONNA HAUNT YOU ALL THE TIME. I PROMISE THAT YOUR GONNA WANT ME BACK WHEN YOUR WORLD FALLS APART LIKE SHATTERED GLASS.

    Wednesday, May 11, 2011

    hospital life

    last tuesday we had hospital..we were to diagnose a patient..who had neavy nose bleeding(as told by our laoshi.aka.teacher) .Our patient was 21 yr old guy,a mechanic.we diagnosed him and found his lymph nodes were swollen.followed by swollen sternum.and some rashes in skin.He had 29% of cancer cells in his body and later on we got to know he had acute leukemia..though it was curable but it costed a lots of money like atleast 2 billion rmb.i felt so sorry for tat guy.its kind of impossible for him to spend huge amount cuz he was mechanic .our teacher told he gonna survive not more than 3 months if he is not given chemotherapy or some kinds of expensive treatment.i wish  god for his recovery.

    karma is a bitch when you aren't

    yup ..karma is a real bitch..when u aren't..this yr i hav got to learn many lessons in my life.omg god wants me to get mature enough to fight against the world..all he did this cuz he wants me to a better person..unlike this..may be god expected more from me.i am not letting you down...may be he wants me to do something great before i die..so many pplz gonna cry when i die.i am real strong now..no matter wats going all around in my life.i am gonna stay hard and pass through everything..make my moma and dad proud.I have my mothers dreams, I have my fathers eyes. You can't take that from me, just go ahead...proud to be your daughter with my head high.i am not gonna let myself down..gonna try fucking hard..but never give up..what i am mend to be and mend to do..love u moma and dady.

    Monday, May 9, 2011


    I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
    Buy all of the things I never had
    Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
    Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
    Oh every time I close my eyes
    I see my name in shining lights
    A different city every night oh
    I swear the world better prepare
    For when I’m a billionaire
    Yeah I would have a show like Oprah
    I would be the host of, everyday Christmas
    Give Travie a wish list
    I’d probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt
    And adopt a bunch of babies that ain’t never had sh-t
    Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this
    And last but not least grant somebody their last wish
    Its been a couple months since I’ve single so
    You can call me Travie Claus minus the Ho Ho
    Get it, hehe, I’d probably visit where Katrina hit
    And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did
    Yeah can’t forget about me stupid
    Everywhere I go Imma have my own theme music
    Oh every time I close my eyes
    I see my name in shining lights
    A different city every night oh
    I swear the world better prepare
    For when I’m a billionaire
    Oh oooh oh oooh for when I’m a Billionaire
    Oh oooh oh oooh for when I’m a Billionaire
    I’ll be playing basketball with the President
    Dunking on his delegates
    Then I’ll compliment him on his political etiquette
    Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it
    But keep the fives, twentys (?) completely separate
    And yeah I’ll be in a whole new tax bracket
    We in recession but let me take a crack at it
    I’ll probably take whatevers left and just split it up
    So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks
    And not a single tummy around me would know what hungry was
    Eating good sleeping soundly
    I know we all have a similar dream
    Go in your pocket pull out your wallet
    And put it in the air

    Sunday, May 8, 2011

    MoMo Love!!
    i love dumpings.especially chicken dumplings.today me and my friends..we cooked dumplings..i hate pork dumplings..Nepal is famous for dumping.and its is the easiest fast food common in nepal.
    reciepe for making chicken dumplings
         chicken,masalas,onion,garlic,ginger,
    1.make kima of chicken..add salt and masalas..cut green onions and grind garlic and ginger.....and mix them.ps.wash your hand properly
     for tomato sauce
    1.take small red ripen tomatos.cook them and add garlic..grind both of them..add salt etc hehe
     for peanut sauce
    1.fry peanuts ..and grind them adding some water..and salt.
            
    weather forcast in chengdu..
      chengdu's weather is something which is unpredictable..even lord christ he gets confused i guess...its summer here..i love summer clothes.and shopping in chengdu is a kind of great fun..may be nobody knows that more than me n my friends..we simply love the shopping destinations here..
      so i was talking abt the weather..Chengdu enjoys a mild climate. It is warm and wet all year. The annual temperature averages 16°C. To summarize the climate of Chengdu, it has “an early spring, hot summer, cool autumn and warm winter”. It is very misty all year, and the sunshine time is short, that is why “the Shu dogs bark on the sunshine” (The sunshine seems so strange to them). The temperature is not so high in summer, but it is very muggy because it is humid. The temperature is generally above 5°C during winter. And it is usually very cloudy and humid.july and August are the hottest time in Chengdu..
       stromy nights:i love thunder and stroms.but only when i am inside my house..i hate going out in summers.except for shopping..hehe ..today it was so hot.but now..its raining..and i love the rain.except for winters.i hope chengdu's climate  to remain cool.this year we didnt have spring..coldest winter ever and hottest summer ever.

    Thursday, May 5, 2011

    arghhh..exams.



    Arghh why do we have to study..i hate studying =P though its time to study..yes I have to study cuz if I don’t pass this freaking exam ..i can’t be a good docter in future so I have to study hard..i cant play with anybody’s life simply..i have to be a real responsible one..cuz I am already in university now….i have a loads and loads of expectations from mummy dady and my brother..ohh I have to start preparing .its already gonna be middle of may..and I have to work a lot on dentistry and traditional Chinese medicine ..because I never ever pay attention in class..though I catch up some notes.i need to work a lot for my Chinese exam cuz I am the only dumbest girl in my class who doesn’t understand simple Chinese characters…okkkkk..aja aja fighting…I will have to face all those sleepless nights and those tight timetable ..ok I am ready..here I gooooo...=]

    Butterflies in my tummy♥ 
    So…this is what I feel..after talking to u…real butterflies in my tummies..its been a lot long time..that we started talking to each other but I feel the same tickle I used to get when I first see you.i ain’t crazy ..i ain’t mad..i am just a believer..i love u..i dnt know whether u do or not.but still I am proud to say that I love you…and I  will not stop loving you less. I think 
    love is when you dont want to go to sleep bcos reality is better than a dream. unfortunately good things rarely last forever. It's hard toknow if he'll be the right  for me  years down the line. I think we should Grow together, love and appreciate each other all we can. Probably he wll be the first guy to break my heart, because I am  vulnerable, but nothing feels better than making someone else happy when you're in love, no matter what my age is . As for "real love", it's not something that's just going to hit me. Love needs to be cultivated over a long time, so that both know we can trust and depend on each other through good times and more importantly through the very hard times. And love is something you cant explain. you just want to be with him forever and ever. you would die for them. they can make you feel better even in the worst situations. you get butterflies when you talk to them or are with them. love is the best feeling ever.ure my best purse that i am alwayz comfortable with.....that i can wear on everywhere.and i wanna be seen be seen with you forever and alwazz

    ♥♥
              ❤ my sunshine..

    Saturday, April 16, 2011

    "True friends are like diamonds – bright, beautiful, valuable, and always in style." 

    <3Paris hilton's quote"<3
    "All you have to do in life is go out with your friends, party hard, and look twice as good as the bitch standing next to you. " 

    "Always walk around like you have on an invisible tiara. " 

    "Every woman should have four pets in her life. A mink in her closet, a jaguar in her garage, a tiger in her bed, and a jackass who pays for everything." 

    "I used to act dumb. It was an act. I am 26 years old, and that act is no longer cute. It is not who I am, nor do I want to be that person for the young girls who looked up to me. I know now that I can make a difference, that I have the power to do that. I have been thinking that I want to do different things when I am out of here. I have become much more spiritual. God has given me this new chance." 

    "I’m an animal activist. Many people say that I’m a hypocrite, because I eat burgers and stuff like that but I won’t wear fur. But I’m not a hypocrite. I just only wear fake fur. " 

    "If you have a beautiful face you don’t need fake boobs to get anyone’s attention" 

    "Never drink diet soda. It shows you have no nerve. Only drink real colas, caffeine-packed energy drinks, or vitamin water. Hate champagne because that’s what everyone expects you to love. Energy drinks are the best party drinks. You never get tired, you never get a hangover, and you can make fun of all the loaded people who think they’re clever but are really acting stupid. " 
    Girls are like apples...the best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when, in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree..."

    Sunday, April 10, 2011

    i  love a man who treats me like I am the center of his world. A man who showers me with love not gifts as I don't care for material things. A man who is giving, helpful, strong, not afraid to cry in front of me. A man who is funny and sensitive. A man who will admit his faults and is honest. A man who can keep me interested. A man who knows when to be serious. A man who can talk about anything.who is giving, helpful, strong, not afraid to cry in front of me. A man who is funny and sensitive. A man who will admit his faults and is honest.
    "If I were to die, murdered in cold blood tomorrow, would you feel sorrow or show love or would it matter?/ could never be the leadoff batter of things, shit for me to feed off, I'm see-saw battlin/but there's way too much at stake for me to be fake/there's too much on my plate and I came way too far in this game to turn and walk away/and not say what I've got to say/what the fuck you take me for, a joke? You smokin crack?/'fore I do that I'll beg Mariah to take me back/I'll get up 'fore I get down, run myself in the ground/ 'fore I put some whack shit out Im tryina smack this one out the park, 5000 mark, ya'll steady tryina drown this shark/ ain't gonna do nothin but piss me off/ lid to the can of whip-ass, just twist me off" 

    ~ 'When the Music Stops'-Eminem

    "Cuz there's a lotta shit I keep bottled that hurts deep inside of my soul/and just know that I grow colder the older I grow, this boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold/ and this load is like the weight of the world and I think my neck is breakin should I give up, or try to live up to these expectations?"

    ~ 'Hailie's Song'-Eminem

    There are a lot of times when I feel like this. Just like this. I turn a corner and there's another freaking roadblock. The lyrics of songs speak my truth that I cannot write and yet nobody understands those lyrics in the context I do.

    I had a raging fire going of stuff to rant here, but now I've lost them all. You see me walking around, just know that I'm mad today, if you couldn't already tell. I'll apologize later.

    Saturday, April 9, 2011

    Jo:hOney there are many fish on the sea.lets go for fishing
    norey:yup buddyyy..omgosshhh i got a fish...
    jo:reallyy!!how the fishh..
    norey:shit its contaminated..what about you?
    jo:my goshh mine one is sea horse...and i am a mermaid and i dnt disserve it.
    norey:i hate this place..let fish the other place..cuz i am a captain jack sparrow and i love exploring
    jo:yup honey... ure my captainn jack sparrow.i love u baby
    norey:love u more..muahhzz
    lucky stars and fairy tales
    i'm gonna bathe myself in a wishin' well
    pretty scars from cigarettes
    i never will forget, I never will forget...





    in life, we do things. some, we wish we had never done and
    some we wish we could replay a million times, but they make
    us who we are and in the end they shape and detail us. if we
    were to reserve them, we wouldn't be the person we are
    today. so just live. make mistakes and have wonderful
    memories. but never for a second forget who you are,
    where you've been and most importantly, where you're going..



    Someday, we'll forget the hurt. The reasons we cried, and who
    caused the pain. We will finally realize that the secret of
    being free is not revenge, but letting things unfold in their
    own way and own time. After all, what matters is not the first,
    but the last chapter of our life, which shows how well we ran the
    race. So smile, laugh, forgive, believe, and love all over again



    here we are, in the best years of our lives, with no way of knowing
    when the wheel will stop spinning cause we don't know where we're
    going. and here we are, on the best day of our lives and it's a go,
    lets make it last. so cheers you all to that cause this moment's never
    coming back



    Sometimes you have to test people. Not because you don't trust them, but to see how much they'll sacrifice for you. And sometimes you have to let people go. Not because you suddenly stopped loving them, but to see if they love you enough to come back.


    In life, we do things. Some, we wish we had never done, and some we wish we could replay a million times, but they make us who we are, and in the end they shape and detail us. If we were to reserve them, we wouldn't be the person we are today. So just live. Make mistakes and have wonderful memories. But never for a second forget who you are, where you've been, where you come from, and where you're going.
    --
    I was amazed that they had so much to talk about.
    from the second they saw each other,
    there was constant laughing, and sarcasm, and commentary,
    something connecting them that pulled taut
    or fell limp with each thought spoken.
    their words, like the music, had the potential to be endless.



    One day, you’ll meet someone, and you’ll just know that it’s right. You won’t hesitate, you’ll just know. –Gilmore Girls
    --
    Because street lights and stop signs
    are all that distance means.
    Freeways and free days are heaven to me.




    You're the brightest star in a pocketful of skies. My colored picture in a world of black and white, my only dream come true in a restless winter night. My dream come true.
    --
    When you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth.


    Somewhere past the interstate,
    the yellow lines and glowing moon,
    you lie still in your bed.
    My heart is stretched for miles and miles.
    --
    Little girl, don’t be so blue.
    I know what you’re going through.
    Don’t let it beat you up.
    Hitting walls and getting scars.
    Only makes you who are.
    No matter how much your heart is aching.
    There is beauty in the breaking



    I have to ask you a question.
    It's a good one so think about it.
    If two people love each other,
    but they just can't seem to get it together,
    when do you get to that point of enough is enough?
    --
    so it's the laughter,
    we'll remember, whenever we
    remember the way we were.



    I can't imagine a moment any better than this; then we kiss.
    --
    Our love project has so much potential, but it's like we weren't made for this world.
    Though I wouldn't really want to meet someone who was.





    Let the world change you
    so you can change the world
    --
    she's a disaster. she loses faith in herself every day. her life is a mess and she doesn't
    even care. No one understands her. and people say stuff to put her down and no one
    even notices that she might be breaking inside. or they never notice that maybe she
    needs a hug from someone. or someone to sit there with her and listen to her.





    you make me laugh at things that aren't funny. you make me smile
    without actually being here. you make my stomach flip by a text.
    you make my heart drop by just saying hi. i hate to admit it, but
    you're still amazing.
    --
    there are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept;
    things we don't want to know, but have to learn and people we can't
    live without, but have to let go.



    If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind. As you create your own path towards happiness; don't waste your time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment as it comes; because you'll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart, where your hope lives. You'll find your way back again.
    --
    as difficult as it seems, you can be sure of this; at the core of
    your heart, you have the power to move beyond the old issues
    that are still hindering your freedom. the hardest things, the ones
    that push you up against your limits are the very things you need
    to address to make a quantum leap into a fresh inner and outer life...




    Thursday, March 10, 2011

    shamran:u bitch ,asshole,f*****etc
    vikas:wot??
    beenu:(comes from far and thinks.that sharam was saying tat to her)u bhaduwa aka pimp
    vikas:beenu,why did u used foul on me?
    beenu:tat wasn't for u.i thought shamran was shouting at me lol.
    vikas:no he was shouting at me.lol

    Wednesday, March 9, 2011

    It ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the lie

    I hoped you’d see my face & that you’d be reminded,
    That for me, it isn’t over.
    Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you.
    I wish nothing but the best for you too.
    Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
    “Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead
    Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
    Regret’s and mistakes they’re memories made.
    Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
    <3..<3

    Thursday, March 3, 2011


    I wish that I had never met you. then there would be no need to impress you. no need to want you. no need for loving you. no need for crying over you. no need for heartbreaks. no need for pain or tears. no need for forgotten promises. no need for rejected hugs. no need for crying myself to sleep. no need for acting like you care. no need, for everything you've done to make me feel like i'm absolutely nothing.

    its all cuz of u

    its all cuz of u
    miss u

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